Just let it go

Assalamualaikum . 

 Honestly , i'm still waiting . Waiting time running every seconds . Hoping time is ticking so fast . So that i can move on with my new life. The real move on. Not like before!

Seriously , I'm tired! Too tired with the drama that surrounds me. When i said enough , means enough ! Do you know that ? Can't you understand my words ? should I repeat again again and again ?

'' promise '' 
Do you really understand that word ? do you ? Please, stop making any promise cause you can't . honestly you can't . You just realize your mistake just for a few days ! only a few days !! Then , you starting make nonsense story about the real situation .

I dont pry ! Honestly i'm not ! I 'm just want you realize that i willing do anything for my friends even though its hurting me ! I told you already about my real intention right ?  so , why you told others that i pry ? why ? 

I didn't mention that i would not forgive you . I just told you that , we would settle down this when we are face to face . that's not clear ? why you told others otherwise ?

I really disappointed ! You are one of my best friends. Why you do that ? I know that i've been using a coarse way to reprimand your attitude but i had ! If i'm remind you with 'kind' language , you would not realized like before. so , i was choose that way while hoping that i can get the old you. But i was wrong ! totally wrong ! You never care at all. 

Nevermind , you already choose your way . what can i do right ? it's up to you to tell the otherwise situation because i dont care anymore. You never know the real our intention because in your mind , we are wrong and just you right . I hope you will understand what we was did . we did all this thing just for your benefit ! Just yours ! not us !   

#Dear fatin , please and please . stop thinking about others! please think about yourself. no one care about your life . your coming future. Just look at yourself and try improve your own weakness . Let everything go ! Just waiting for the next :D
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Assalamualaikum ,

Day by day , month by month . I'm still here in Bandar Mas. the same routine everyday. Every morning , i will help my mom at my shop. The tile shop.
  I have a dream. My great dream. I really eager to achieve my dream even though it can kill me slowly . I dont care actually -,-

One day , i want to be an architect . The best architect in Malaysia. No ! In the world ever. I want my parents proud of me. I want prove to others that i can be. 

PUO ( Politeknik Ungku Omar ) is my first target . I want to be the PUO student. My first planning. Someone told me , the senior of PUO , the PUO will upgrade as university . Oh really ? That's mean the qualification become  stringent . honestly , i worried ! 

 Honestly, I was really scared when I was thinking about my future. yes! My future is terrible and frightening.
sometimes I wonder, am I able to achieve my dream? or I'll stay forever this way? Am I going to be an architect? or salesperson only? or just as a housewife? How if I can not get PUO? That means that my plans will be ruined. And to develop a new plan, it will take time. who knows how long time . 

many questions in the mind. they just buried and just waiting for what will happen. I hope it's not as bad as what is imagined. yes! I hope.
# I am blessed to have the best family, he is very understanding and the good friends who are always by my side. thanks a lot dear :')

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